Before I had bubs, I didn't want to return to work at all - at least until my youngest was in kindy. Then when I fell pregnant, I wanted to take 12 months off before picking up some casual work. Now, I'm looking at working three days a fortnight starting in January, so DS will be 6 months old. I feel torn about it - it makes me sick to think of being away from him for even a couple of hours, but I'm also looking forward to going back to work. It may sound silly, but I really felt good at my job, competent and confident. As a mum, I've felt lost and unsure, and being a SAHM isn't what I thought it was going to be. Our plan was for me to stay home and for DH to work a second job because financially, we need a second income. But I've decided to work one or two days per week and DH will stay home with bub those days. In saying all this, I don't think I would have made this decision if I had to put DS into daycare.