Kazzo - That's a great idea about the walking! I just might do that It's also totally true what you said with regards to working more now so that I can have time with next bubs. I'm hoping we will be able to work things out financially that I'll only need to go back 3 days a week (initially at least) when we have the two. I figure that not only will childcare be much more expensive (well double actually lol), but with two I will really need more time to share myself around a bit more.

Thanks everyone for the support. I was sure I wasn't the only one feeling this way, but it's really hit me hard at the moment. I didn't feel this bad last year (DD went into child care at 6 months and I went straight back to 4 days), but I think that's because I was a bit over the reflux and playing with rattles....(DD only really started 'moving' at 10 months). After having the christmas break with her (I'm a teacher), I think I really realised again how much I was missing, which has been making things extra hard this year. Oh well.....hopefully this time next year I will be on maternity leave again with another little bubs. I'll definately appreciate my time much more next time.