So I'm heading back to work- my decision.

For DH and I we have always agreed that at this stage we wold rather one of us home to look after DD rather than use child care.

At the moment DH is working FT and I am getting maternity leave pay- but that finishes in Dec so we will only have DH's wage. Seen we can survuve soley on my pay if I work full time we have decided I will go back rather than DH working FT and me working PT aswell and never having family time. DH will be a SAHD.

Now with all that said, I really don't mind being back at work. I am a nurse and I love my job. I have been offered some really great training opurtunities and look forward to it all. I am just soo worried DD is going to miss her mummy. Will she know I'm not there...will she think I have abandoned her? Gosh- I know it sounds silly but I don't want her to be sad. I know that I will miss her like crazy- my heartbreaks just thinking about it- but it makes it worse if I think that she will be missing me too IYGWIM

I'm not worried about DH caring for her- I have trained him well ...LOL...I am just sad that I won't see her 'good morning' smiles and have morning hugs and basically just won't be around her all the time The longest I have been without DD is 3 hours at that was very hard work!

I am not the first mum to return to full time work, I know that, and I know I'm not the last so how to I get rid of this ache in my heart and the anxiety I feel about not being around her? What strategies do you use during your days at work when you start to long for your baby? Should I start being away from her for longer periods now so she can get used to it? (or me get used to it more like it...LOL)

AHhh, I am beginning to understand why my mum told me to get used to feeling guilty when I became a mum...

TIA