Michelle - Thanks I wonder if it would be as hard if I was in the UK with family to help out. But you know what I think it would. DH helps me settle her at night if I struggle but if she wants feeding then I do it as I am BF.

I am expressing some milk and plan to get a good supply frozen over the next few weeks so that I can get a way for a few hours if I need to.

The housework has gone to pot. I manage to do the washing and ironing and keep the kitchen clean (not hard since I hardly cook best thing I did was filling the freezer with food though it is running out now).

It seems whenever I really need to get my head down Erykah knows this and she won't settle. Bless her like a baby could be that calculated! I do love being a mum though.

I think I got a smile off her yesterday. Made me melt.

Anyway off to make a cup of tea

Jo