Having a crap day. Dee - remember I said I can relate to the DH thing? Well it's come to a bit of a head today. I surprised him by showing up at lunch with his favourite food, with Hannah in tow to have lunch with him (he likes it when we do this). Anyway, he's started talking about quitting his job, because he doesn't like it. He is the head microbiologist at his company, and we live in a country town. Where is he gonna find work to support his family? It has been suggested that I go back to work and he just bring her in for feeds. This might sound funny, but I know he wouldn't look after like I do. He never wants to spend time with her. Occasionally I can convince him to take her for 1/2 an hour while I have a shower. He hasn't got up to her in the night once (I mean ever!) and the nappy changing lasted all of one week when she was first home. On weekends he'd rather be gardening than hang out with us. I know she'd get ignored, and I am not prepared for that to happen. I want her to grow up knowing that there is always someone around for cuddles and to chat to. That's how I like to spend my day. I know he wouldn't be the same. He wouldn't neglect her physical needs, but I don't think he'd provide the kind of social stimulation she needs either. And I kinda resent the fact that he has been unemployed for most of our 5 year relationship (kept quitting 'cos he didn't like one thing or another about each job), and now I just need him to stick with something for our sake! I have supported us through all this time and haven't been unemployed since I was 14. I feel like I've earned the right to enjoy being at home with my daughter while she is little. Being a mum is hard work too!

Ok..I should probably save this for the punching bag forum. You guys don't need to hear this! I have just been crying all day, and I feel like crap. That was just the proverbial straw that broke this camel's back.

I will try to get around to personals later - DH has just rung to say he's coming home early.