Hi all,

No not in hospital, dr keeps saying "we want to avoid that" I think he's putting it off as long as possible, giving my body a chance to deal with it. Yesterday there was no change, except no fevers at all yesterday so I think at least its not getting any worse. It's still red, the red isn't going away. This morning after she fed it wasn't as hard as it has been the past few days but I have noticed a kind of lumpiness to my boob which gives me stabbing pain when I poke it, which I think is the abcess (I couldn't tell before as it all felt sore and hard). Dr is seeing my AGAIN this afternoon 4.40pm, we decide what we're doing over the weekend. I don't want to go to hospital, I hate them so bad I couldn't wait to leave after the c/s! But then, if I am going to need to go at all, I'd rather go sooner than later.

Jazz has been a real ***** on my boob though. I haven't given her formula yet, even though she's gotten into biting my, and both nipples are cracked and the left one is bleeding too The things we do.... I have some Lansinoh (i think thats what its called... its the ridiculously expensive purple tube of yellow oily stuff that works wonders lol), which helped clear it up when they started cracking and bleeding in the first 2 weeks. And to think, all this caused by feeding her Sometimes you wonder hey, I'm doing it for her, and of course it IS worth it, but is it REALLY worth it when I think about me too you know...

Real estate rang yesterday, the owners are selling the house and our lease isn't being renewed. Well, we knew the owners were selling, they offered it to us first, but I am psitting chips as our lease runs out on December 22. I doubt anyone would be able to buy and settle a contract between now and then (or does it happen fast? I thought it was a very drawn out process) but as Shel works for the zoo she can't get time off during school holidays to move and its not like I can do it myself with Jazz) but moving in January is pretty much impossible so does anyone know how we can get out of our lease early. Not HEAPS early, you know, just like beginning of December. Do you reckon they'd be ok? I doubt it hey...? What a PITA. I'm so comfy here too, we're so close but far enough away from everything...

Anyway, not much else to say, got a driving lesson on Monday (Kel I'm with Coastwide) so if anyone is in Caboolture WATCH OUT! PMSL! Nah, I'm not a bad driver, I'm just very nervous. Paying $50 a lesson, suppose its gotta be done but I don't like parting with my cash lol!