esme - how scary sweetie! I really feel for you. It sounds like it most likely is non-cancerous and hopefully after the op it will be all over. It is so different now that we have another person to look after isn't it? You no longer just worry about yourself but you being well enough to look after your darling boy. If I was closer I would do anything I could to help you out. I hope you can manage to have a relaxing weekend, although I know it must be hard to not think about it. And we are always here to 'listen' to you!

prama - how are you going? Happy birthday for the weekend! I hope you have a lovely time. So, any plans to move to the country now??

sue - I am getting more and more tempted to start reading the Twilight books. I just spent a week glued to another book so no housework was done so I really should get things in order again but I would rather read! I have started giving DD a small cup of milk each day, plus two BFs each day. She also has some cheese, milk on her cereal, and often a serve of yoghurt or custard each day. I hope I'm not giving her too much dairy? She loves it most of the time and is quite a fussy eater, so if she is happy to eat something, I just give it to her!

jen - uh oh, I hope you're not preggers! I am not quite ready for another one yet, but was lucky to have a pretty easy (ok that is really not the right word to use, but ykwim - nothing went wrong!) birth, although I did have a few grazes which took quite a while to heal. I was holding a newborn the other day and I must admit it made me a little bit clucky. I think I will wait a little longer before TTC #2 though. I Hope Amber is sleeping better now! I hate when they get sick and it mucks up their sleep, even after they're better. Catherine has done the same thing, she had a bad cold and started waking at night for a feed and now that she is nearly better she still wants the night feed! Grrr...

I have been looking for day care options for Catherine lately so that I can look at going back to work PT. A place has come up in both a day care centre and at a family day care. I have no idea which one to go for. I visited the day care yest and it looks good and am checking out the famy day care next week. I get such bad mother guilt leaving her somewhere but I think it will be good for her development to be around other kids more and to get some independence away from me. I just feel bad that I don't have a job so I will be putting her in care for nothing if I can't find work! But I can't even look for work until she is in care as there is no one here who can look after her for me to even attend an interview and apparently it can be hard to find a place in care here, so I should just take the spot and hope some work turns up. I just wish I didn't get such bad mother guilt - no one told me about this before I became a mum!