Hi all,

WARNING - this is going to be a selfish post LOL so apologises from the start!!

DH went away today for a week - some of you would know that he spends a lot of time away from now until May/June next year (this is a yearly thing). Anyway my moan is that I am finding it sooooo full on by myself and this is only the first day of many many many more. With DH away the days seem so overwhelming - at least when he is coming home at night he is there to help with bathtime and bedtime and for me knowing he is coming home helps me to get through any stressful times during the day. It is just hard as there is absolutely no down time during the day.

In saying all of this I know we will survive but it just daunting knowing this is only the beginning of his away time. DH worries about all of us when he goes away as he knows how full on it is and I know he appreciates and understands what we go through without him here so at least he isnt clueless about how hard it is. I feel like I am not spending any quality time with any of the kids as I am just running from one to the other versus being able to sit with them and take the time to play/read etc. I do play with them all (sometimes seems like that is all I do) but I would like to do more rather than having to stop playing or reading or whatever it is we are doing because someone else needs me. I guess that isnt realistic but I worry that I am not doing enough.

SOrry for the post but I just needed to get this off my chest.

I will definitely do personals tomorrow as Oliver and Jesse are in childcare so the day is mine and Charlottes!!

A big hello to everyone and I hope you and your babes are happy and healthy. Talk to you all soon
Jem
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