i know i shouldnt be thinking about it at all, but im just thinking about the future, and what i want to do. First i want to sort all this crap out with XH, then focus on my RAAF interview - have to rush everything through to be ready for the board in March. Thats very important to me. If i want to make something out of my life (and not live on the pension forever) i have to do this. And it wll be doing something im really interested in, im realy looking forward to it... then once im settled, and im coping with working and looking after 3 children, i want to then look at buying a new house and car.. then thinking about a man. These are my goals. RAAF, (working mum ) house, car, man