I am so proud to know you Maya, what a great experiance that would have been, not that I would ever be brave enough to have a home birth myself I believe its our rights as mothers to choose the way we have our children....

Mel sounds like you have been having a ball in Brisbane... I think I am the only one who doesnt get out and about on my own, I havent been anywhere with out at least one child by my side since having Zayden, my time will come one day I am sure... maybe when BHL has a noraml job so that I dont feel guilty leaving him on his days off...

Well not much to say here, we are still TTC our little one with out any luck, BHL is no longer sure he wants to even have a 4th which is heart breaking... we are still TTC for now but I know that my time is fast running out, if it doesnt happen by Christmas I dont think it will... I am Hating Mackay, so I have been feeling quite down, hence been a bit quite, I told BHL that I would like to be back in Cairns by the end of next year, so we will see what happens, I am missing Melb and my family heaps which isnt helping, Kai walks around with a photo of her nanny and granddad and tells me she is missing them, so that is also very hard... things just dont seem to be going right for us at the moment BHL also doesnt like Mackay so at least that something, but been new in the job he doesnt want to ask about other sites just yet...

well thats about it

love you all I miss our dayly chats we used to have... but I guess as our junies get older and new children come along, things too must change...