Thanks cansy. I've spoken to nickers in the nicu/premmie area, its good to have someone know how hard it is... someone to sympathise. But Anneliese is doing great, she's amazing all her drs, she pulled her feeding tube out 3 days ago, and its like she knew she didnt need it, as she hasnt need it to be put back in - she's taking all her feed by bottle/breast (depending if im there or not). And she's hit the golden 2kg mark (she's now 2.072kg) so im hoping she'll be home in about a week. I cant wait for the sleepness nights, ill finally get to feel like a mummy, not a carer when i finally get time to go to hospital... but Anneliese is doing great woth her breastfeeding, she's demanding, and its nice to be able to bond with her Have to see gp this week, dh is convinced i have PND, trying to tell him its hard to feel like a mummy when my baby is almost a month old and hasnt been out of the nursery yet... of course im goingt o be a little down and depressed. Doesnt mean i have PND!!