Hey JB, you are evidently an excellent mum! I mean it. You are showing enormous concern for your baby and you have a strong desire to do your best to care for her well. That is what makes a "good" parent. Of course everything about raising kids is grey but we wish it were black and white. I have had tantrums 'back in the day' when I lacked support and felt frustrated with the situation but it didnt make me a 'bad' mum. I have apologised to my kids numerous times over the years for making mistakes.

Definition: A 'bad parent' is one that does not care about the impact they have on their offspring, has kids to benefit themselves, and wouldnt say they are a 'bad parent'.

Hang in their babe! And get a professional opinion on what is happening with bubs. A good paediatrician or health centre nurse may do the trick, or call your local mother baby unit staff. If they tell you not to worry but you are still worried ask again until you feel you know what is going on.

TL - best of luck and for your big days ahead!