Hey all...

Jen- yay on Lucy sitting up. What a clever little girl! Abs sits supported, Tim had her on his knee and aparently she was sitting by her slef, but by the time i got there he was holding her again....so i missed it.

Well, I had a total melt down yesterday. Crazy stuff. Ive said id play in a netball team and ive commited myself to play in the band i auditioned for (I got it! ha!). Tim and i were talking about TTC no2 and decided we would go ahead.... yay! went into the lounge... burst into tears, freaked out, scared and worried and excited, then started thinking that if i have my italian class on a monday, netabll on thursday and band on friday that i must be the worst mum in the world, spending so much time away from her. then i thought that maybe i neglect her as she had what i think was a bit of nappy rash and some dry skin on her sweet little head... i just could not stop crying. Then Tim admitted that he still thinks about some of the feelings we had while pregnant with abby and he is scared that its all he is going to think about if we get pregnant again. realised that we have so much that we still have to deal with so im going to ask the child health nurse for some advice on someone we can both go and talk to so that we can put everythign behind us once and for all. I just didnt realise what a big deal it all was, it was just normal for us but obviously its still effecting us today... obviously not ready for number 2! thats for sure.

Does anyone else feel guilty for spending time out of the home?