Oh Em, it doesn't sound like you should be putting yourself under TTC pressure just yet. You poor love, fancy dealing with leaving Abby to work, AF and the worry of what another pg might be like all at once! Why don't you leave making any decision until at least some of the other things have settled down? You might change your mind later, or not. Either way, you're a good Mum and doing the best you can for your family! As you can see from my ticker, we're not hurrying along to the TTC journey just yet. But I do go to and fro in my head about when would be the right time, etc, etc. I know DP is definitely intent on waiting so I don't think I'd be eager enough to manage to convince him.

Maybe you should try the counselling and see if you feel differently afterwards?