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Caro, I forgot to add that I would've bawled my eyes out if I'd dropped BM. I haven't acutally expressed as yet. I have a pump but haven't done it. I wouldn't use it atm though. I am afraid of letting Oskar so much as have a bottle once yet cos what if he likes it better than he likes my boob, then I'd really cry

Rachel, that's like Oskar was today. We were in the car and the poor little mite was crying and worked himself up so much and he even had little coughs in between his cry every now and then and he also had the little shaken cry sound (don't know if that makes sense). I went to pull over in a park and was driving to find a parking spot and he fell asleep so I leave and thought I'll get fuel on the way home as he's asleep now...well, he woke up and then cried all the way home (about 10 mins) and I was talking to him and telling him I was still there and my heart was breaking and I just wanted to stop and hold him but I knew it was better if I just got home. He then spent the rest of the day (from about 3:30pm) in my arms until he went to bed. Oh apart from having a cuddle with dad for a little while and his bath.