So sorry... been feeling like a slack a$s not posting in the other threads so have been doing a few. Gosh all these new arrivals, Losses, preg announcements... its beena bit of a roller coaster giving help to others. After writing a post to help someone through a tough time i found myself thinking what a hipocrite i was. I was giving advice i had not taken myself. So i ended up writing a thread about my losses as i never really speak about my Angels. I helped alot. Things here. Although sleep soounds better here then with some of you , DP still isnt helping out much and things are just piling up, i'm in tears for no reason, feeling like there is so much pressure, i cant even get basic chores done at the moment. I have no energy, no motivation, feel like my head is mush during the day but at night i cant sleep cos its going 100 miles an hour. My neck and back are so sore but also i keep getting these weird pains all over, like it'll start on my left side lower tummy and then my arms will start acheing etc... I just feel so Blah..... DP and i had a huge fight. He called my lazy and yes i havent been doing much but have spent the last 3 weeks asking for help and getting nothing so i have taken a step back cos i just cant handle it anymore. I spent a long time doing everything by myself proving to people i could be a mum at 19 and now when i need it no one is willing to offer help. MIL's idea of helping is offering t pay for 1 more day a DC for DS. it will be good for me to have that day without him but i kind of expected that she'd speak with DP. Not sure if its cos his Dad was never around so he has never know what a father has or should do... He thinks he goes to work and thats it. Last night after i blurted my heart out about not coping i asked him to watch the kids while i cooked T. he *****ed and whinged that i said just til i get it on then... (u know like it was something) so he does (enough time for me to peel and chop the spuds) and he yells out to me... Is it ok if i have a shower... Like WTF... The chops were a bit burnt ( i gave that one to him where usually i would have had it) he comments on how its a bit burnt..... i tell him it was cos DD kept comming in and DS was annoying her and she was upset etc and if he was watching maybe dinner wouldnt be burnt but it doesnt sink in. I just feel like nothing will get through to him... how to i tell him that i feel like i'm zoned out... not with it anymore... i even forgot last week to take DS to preschool...
Sorry for the vent... Just had to get things out.
Abb- hope u have a great time in Melbourne... Heard bout ur meet up with the girls... So jealous u and NaNa are having a meet up... I have my 1st BB meet up next monday (23rd) ... So excited.
LMK- Thanks for asking bout me (u too Abbie)... Saw ur FB status bout DS's soccer... DID get get to play??? Cant wait til i can get DS into sport i think it will get rid of 1/2 the extra energy he has...
Brought DD an amber necklace for the teething... Hopefully it will arrive today... Been looking at party stuff... Not sure how over the top i want to go... LOL... Feel slack that jordan had a HUGE 1st B'day. Cant choose between Butterflies, fairies, or princesses. My friends think i should make it Butterflies and fairy princesses and incorporate them all.. lol... what is everyone getting the kids for their B'days... have no idea what to get... I brought a bracelt (from ebay) $40 9 k solid gold. Bargin... RRP $140. YAY... Cant wait to give it to her and put it on.
WOW at all ur hubbies helping out... Can i swap... lol...
I was speaking to a friend bout peanuts the other day... I hadnt even given DD a sandwich yet and yesterday was her 1st honey one and she LOVED it... My friends said to try PB but i had an allergy as a child and i wont be trying for a while... Good news is looks like DD doesnt have an MSG allergy like DS>.. We had chinese and DP gave her some fried rice and she was ok... YAY...
Anyone else with a bubba with ezcema??? What does bubs react to??? Tiahna gets a flare up with Bananna... her FAV fruit...
BBL taking DS to school
Last edited by Je$$_84; March 13th, 2009 at 09:48 AM.
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