Hi all! The Midget has decided that day-naps are like, sooo uncool so I’ll see how long I manage to stay on the pooter!
Vic – I thought it was interesting that you said that when they learn new stuff it can make them cranky. Ivy has been really funny lately. It seems that her brain has developed further than her body so she wants to do things but can’t coordinate the movements. She’s now able to grab stuff and bring it to her mouth, but can’t manipulate the object well enough and ends up shoving a flat surface or awkward corner against her lips and then CRACKS IT with frustration. Or she’ll be on he belly and be looking at something she wants to get to, but obviously can’t crawl… so starts yelling at it! It’s very cute, but has meant that I can’t leave her too play on her own for as long, as she gets grumpy pretty fast.
Jacinta – can’t imagine going to a party with strippers with my Mum!!! That’d freak me right out. Hope she had a ball though.
Nicky – loved the vid of your ‘banshee baby’. Cracked me up. Ivy squeals occasionally, but not long drawn out ones like that… only a matter of time before she figures it out though, and then I’m getting me some ear-muffs!
Naomi – I’m loving hearing about Bailey’s experience with solids. We’re a while off trying it yet – Ivy’s not showing any signs of readiness beyond mouthing lots of stuff - but I know it’s just around the corner and it’s really helpful to hear how others have approached it. Kinda dreading those solids poos though! Super happy for you that it seems to be helping out with longer sleeps too. You must feel like a different person after 6-8 whole hours in a row! Hope your man gets over his flu soon – they’re big sooks aren’t they?!
BG – I’m so sorry to hear about DH’s work. That sounds really stressful for you both. I don’t doubt he’ll find other work quickly though since he’s been doing it forever. Here’s hoping he gets a job that allows him to be home more often so he can give both his girls regular cuddles – very important! Made me laugh reading about E wanting to keep up with the other kids. I think Ivy would be the same… I wanna RUN!!! And glad you had fun at Nae’s… I’ve been following her story through some of her posts and am so excited for her. She seems like such a lovely woman and deserves so much happiness after all the heartache she’s been through.
Amy – I too am dreading teeth as Ivy does exactly the same thing! Bites down and then looks up at me and beams. SO cute but has made me cry out in pain quite a few times and wears very thin when feeding takes forever as they’re too busy looking around to just finish off the feed. Natty sounds like such a cutie. Determined and wilfull, yes, and she shouldn’t give her Mummy such a hard time sometimes, but very cute. I look forward to Ivy being able to chat to me. But at the same time IKWYM about having to put away the smaller baby clothes… they’re growing up so fast!
Sorry to those I’ve missed – thought I’d just stick to this page so at least persies felt do-able. Hiiii to all of you!
AFU – I’m still loving this Mummy gig. Ivy is so gorgeous when she wakes up and sees me in the morning and grins so much her whole body gets involved and it’s grin-wriggle-wriggle-gurgle-squeeeeel-grin!! She does the funniest little dance now when she’s happy where she almost looks like she’s go-go dancing, swinging her arms around and kicking her legs. Cracks me up. So mostly, it’s all good. She makes me smile every day and I just love her more and more, if that’s possible.
But, I have to confess, I’m having some rough spots too. I have suffered from anxiety and depression on and off since adolescence, and some of that is creeping back in. Have had a couple of panic attacks over the past few weeks which is not fun, and I’m finding that I get really scary mental images of something happening to Ivy (like I imagine that I go into her room and find her not breathing) and I freak myself right out. I also find that some days I feel a bit trapped. Like the enormity of this commitment is finally hitting me and I realise that I don’t get a break. Ever. Or at least not for about 18 years. Some days I wake up and it just feels a bit like ‘Groundhog day’ – the same thing over and over again. Ivy is still feeding about every 2 ? hours and refuses to take a bottle so I can’t leave her with anyone (and mostly, don’t want to), but the feeling of being so completely depended on gets a bit overwhelming at times.
Do you know what I mean? Don’t get me wrong… I have no regrets. I adore my little girl and love my new life. It’s just non-stop and draining and confronting and the emotions involved are so strong that sometimes the joy spill over into fear of losing it all or doing it wrong or grief for the loss of my old self.
Well Midget Girl is awake, so here endeth the rant. We’re off to the MCHN for our 4 month appt – late b/c Ivy’s still a bit delayed as she was prem. I’ll try and pop back in and let you know our stats.
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