I have an iphone so I am hoping to be able to log onto the net in the hospital after my caesar and let you girls know. I will post in here. Will do a birth announcement in the birth announcement thread when I get home, but Kate maybe pm me your mobile number, that way I can text you if I have problems logging onto the net and you can post in here for me, thanks!!!
I just got back from my ob visit at the hospital and I haven't stopped crying. Lets just say I was nervous about my c/s before my appt but I am absolutely terrified now. Coz I am such high risk due to having lots of scar tissue inside they have told me that I will be put to sleep to have my c/s next week. I am petrified. That also means DH can't come in with me or anything. I have been put to sleep twice before when I had to have D&C's after my miscarriages but I never thought I would have to be put to sleep for my c/s. The reason being is that they are expecting the operation to take a long time and they don't want to risk the epidural wearing off half way through. They are also worried about me bleeding heaps. She said I may need a blood transfusion and if the bleeding can't be stopped I will have to have a hysterectomy. I am sooooo scared of dying its not funny. I have always been afraid of dying but now something bad like this is happening I am really scared. I am too scared to tell my family (my parents etc) that I have to be put to sleep coz my mum is a super worrier (that's where I get it from) and she will panic big time. Also they are cutting me up and down as well as crossy ways so I will have my normal c/s scar on the outside as well as one from my belly button downwards. I couldn't care less about the scar coz its not like I wear bikinis or anything anyway.
Mel - Hope the stomach bug didn't last too long. Fingers crossed Bec isn't dropping her day sleep just yet. God I hope Lara still sleeps for at least a year yet. Cadence dropped hers at 2 and a half and I was devastated.
Kate - Fingers crossed this is your month that you fall pregnant.
gotta go, my kids have been playing in the sand pit and have just walked in the house covered in sand. They did it yesterday too and I had to vacuum and mop to get rid of it, I don't feel like doing it again.
Kate- Bella sounds devine! Bec has started using more words in the past week. Its funny...she falls over and goes...I alright! I just want to eat her!
Leigh- hun, big hugs to you. I can feel your anxiety. try and stay positive ...easy for me to say but I suppose if they have changed you for a day where you have top surgeons, then youre in good hands. Just lots of hugs to you. Make sure you rest up before the big day.
Us- well....bec has had the runniest nappies today. She farts and her nappy needs changing. Its revolting. She has hardly eaten a thing, but is happy enough to play. She ate a bit of broccoli and cauliflower for tea...thats about it. She didnt have her day sleep today...she was in the cot standing, I went in there to tell her to go to sleep and I could smell her. Poor thing! So i have just kept her up. Hopefully a warm bath will get her relaxed. Any suggestions for runny poo? Shes getting plenty of watered down juice (wont touch her water at the moment)...thats about it!
Leigh - I will PM you my mobile number asap! Please try not to worry ( i know i know) as you will be in great hands! It is scarey being put under for an op - I had my gall bladder out about 2 months ago and it was scarey but doesnt last for to long - at least you will have a new bub to wake up to! I just had pain! I know you will do SO well and know that n Bellwe are all here for you!
I cant wait to see your BA! Good luck and we will all be thinking of you!
Mel - I have always given Bella cerial or toast when she has the runs - kinda binds them up a bit - but saying that it its a bug then its best to let it run its coarse - so it all leaves her system.
Bella is astounding me with her words now! And I love how if I ask her a question she says Yes or no! Its getting easier to comuniacte with her! And she says Lub you and pretty mummy.. so cute!
Not much else - O day tomorrow so then starts the waiting game...
Thanks girls, I'm trying my hardest to try and think positive. I just want me and the baby to be ok!!! Bub is still breech but hopefully that wont cause any more drama in getting him/her out.
Mel - How is Bec today? Hope she gets better soon, poor little girl.
Kate - What are you doing on the internet when its O day tomorrow.........get to it lol. Fingers crossed this is your month. Bella sounds like such a little chatter box, cute!!! Lara has been coming out with more words the past few wks too.
Leigh I totally understand your fears. I read in the labour section your thread. Some of the girls who have had the GA seem to think its better in terms of being able to wake up and move around better. I know yours is a bit dfferent in that its higher risk, so it makes it that more stressful, but I am glad for you they are getting the most experienced in to do it. sounds like youre going to be in good hands. The girls had some great thoughts on what you might want to be done...like filming or photos of baby being only held and bringing in for the first feed. Something to think about.
Rebecca is much better. Yesterday she didnt eat a great deal, but at least had dry farts!!! She hasnt had a runny nappy for 2 days now and had yoghurt for breaky this morning. She still stinks though when she does fart and when I went into their room in the middle of the night to see Olivia with her nightmare, the room stunk...Bec was up at 4am with a rumbly tummy, so ended in with us for the last few hours. Hopefully its all good from now on.
Dh and I spoke about names again. I wonder when we will be 100%? Hes the one who is chosing ultimately so when he changes his mind so frequently it makes it hard! The latest we have come up with is Jessica Ellen (ellen is his grandmothers name). To be honest I like it much more than Amy Melissa...although I do like my name in there, but Im not too fussed at the same time!
Oh Leigh you poor thing, how are you feeling now? It's so awful to be scared of something I think you will be just fine, and it wont last long. I can't wait to hear your update!
Mel how are the runny poos? Hope you decide on a name soon, I like both of them! I was watching a birth show before and a girl had the name Autumn...I really like it! But Im not sure if I would use it....my bet is hubby would hate that name... lol. Name choosing is so damn hard.
Kate oooooooh you are in the 2WW now! Any symptoms?
I'm at work atm. I miss Mia so much today, I keep getting teary. Silly , I know. Im working late tonight so I wont see her at all today. We are going away Wednesday, so that should be good! She missed her day sleep yesterday which nearly killed me, because she was so full on and kept having tanties coz she was tired. Just texted Mum and she said she is asleep now thankfully.
Hey skye...all good here. The girls are better and back at day care. We havent decided on a name at all now! Too hard! Have a fun time away.
Kate- how was your shag fest!!! LOL...its ok, you dont have to tell me!
Leigh- only 2 more days and you'll have your little baby in your hands. All the best my dear. Try and stay positive and remember you are having the best surgeons that they have got. I hope that youre all organised and have decided on how you would like the birthing process to go. I am looking forward to your announcement. What time are you due in? AM or PM? I'll be hovering around to hear the news. Again, all the best and take care.
Sky - hope your day at work is going quick for you and that you'll be back home with Mia before you know it. Have fun while you are away. How long are you going for?
Kate - When is test day for you? Fingers are crossed for you!
Mel - Glad your girls are better. We still haven't decided on a girls name yet. If a boy it will most definitely be Kai but still not sure of a middle name at this stage. We have two in mind but not sure yet.
I'm still absolutely terrified about Wednesday. I have to be at the hospital at 6.30am and my c/s will be sometime in the morning. I had an appointment with the anesthetist (sp?) this arv and he said they would prefer just to give me a spinal/epidural but the obstetrician will have the final say I guess. He said the only thing about me going under a general is that they need to get the baby out fairly quickly coz it can be affected by the anesthetic whereas a spinal/epidural has no affect on bub. But I think its going to take a long time to open me up, get bub out, tie my tubes and stitch me back up, that's why the ob wants the general so the spinal doesn't wear off in the middle of everything. I'd just feel more in control if I was awake and knew what was going on. The obs have stressed to me how complicated the surgery will be. I'm still crying all the time coz I'm that scared of dying. Can you believe I am actually going to write my girls "goodbye letters" tonight just in case something terrible does happen. My mum arrives tomorrow. She doesn't know the full extent of how complicated my surgery will be, she is a bigger worrier than me so I don't want to stress her but I don't want her to see me crying tomorrow either. Tomorrow night putting my kids to bed will be the hardest for me. They will be asleep still when I leave for the hospital on Wednesday.
Like I said I have an iphone and will get on and post in here sometime on Wednesday, most likely in the arv but I've got Kate's mobile number just in case I have problems logging on or something. I will post in the BA section once I am home.
Oh Leigh hun, I am so sorry that you feel this way. Big cyber hugs hun. I dont know what else to say, I just feel sad that you feel this way and that you feel so terrified for your own life. I will be sending out a prayer for you and your little baby.
Thanks Mel. I know this should be a joyous occasion and I am mad at myself for feeling this way but I can't help it. I feel sorry for my baby coz I should be celebrating but instead feeling terrified. A few people have told me not to worry and that if it was so dangerous then the obstetrician would've recomended that I terminate the pregnancy when I first found out and I guess this is true.
Oh Leigh - I am so sorry you are going through this and are so scared. Your post really touchd my heart and I have shed a few tears for you. You will all be AOK - but I know it must be so scarey.
I cant wait to see your post in here and I will be able to jump on a post if you cant.
Try and enjoy your last days with the girls before you bring home a new little bundle!
Thanks girls. Rachael, good to see you back in here. Hope you've been well.
My mum arrived today & we've been racing around doing last minute things. I feel rushed off my feet & still feel like I've got so much organising to do.
Leigh I wanted to wish you all the very best. I know tonight is going to be a difficult one for you, but I hope you take some time to enjoy your last pregnancy moments and enjoy your family of 4 before it turns into a family of 5! I wish you smooth sailing with your ceaser and that your recovery is fast. I am looking forward to hearing from you again very soon and hopefully we can see some pics of that special little bub in there (are you on facebook?) Remember you have highly experienced people who are going to do your op, so I hope that relaxes you a bit. Try and get some good rest tonight and I am looking forward to hearing the great news. BIG HUGS x o xo
Thanks Mel and Kate. I feel rushed off my feet still. I'm still in the middle of packing. DH is at work until 1am so just me and the girls and mum home. I feel sad coz I haven't had any time to spend with the kids tonight. I feel really anxious and can't relax, don't think I will be able to sleep. Hopefully I get some sleep though. I'm trying not to think about the negatives, just the positives.
I will try and pop on before my c/s tomorrow but if not I will be back online tomorrow arv to tell you girls my news, if I can't get on I will text Kate and she can let you all know for me.
Thanks for everything girls, it has meant so much to me to be able to chat to you all and to get such good advice from you all xxx
I think you will be just fine, and it wont last long. I can't wait to hear your update! 
You can do this darling, everything will be fine. More hugs. 
Thinking of you and wishing you all the very best. 
I know it will all be fine darling. 
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