HUGE blanche. Well done for recognising that all was not well in your world - its so hard to "admit" that you are not coping with life - with the stigma of depression being so rife and societies expectations that we should be able to do EVERYTHING. I went on AD's for the first time after I had Nathan. He was about 7mths old. I had known in myself that I wasn't ok... I kept saying that "when this happens" or "when Nathan starts sleeping through" or "when this settles down" everything will be ok.... except nothing changed. It was when I completely lost it with Laura - screaming at her, nathan screaming in his cot, and me locking myself in the bathroom, sobbing on the floor, that I knew I had to do something. One day at time darlin...