Hello again

It's been a long time. I hope you're all well and your babies are healthy and happy. Despite all the problems I have had with Jude's lack of sleeping, my long-term insomnia and ongoing breast refusal that has me second-guessing myself every moment of every day, I continue to get by. I can't really believe it's 4 months and I still don't know what's going on. Tomorrow the MCHN is coming by to see if she can shed any light on the situation.

Georgi: I guess I "saw" you at mums and bubs yoga today. If you were there last week, I was the sorry sucker with the baby who screamed the entire hour, the one with the defeated expression on my face. I am so grateful he was peaceful today, I wasn't going to go back after last week but my husband convinced me and I'm glad I did go, because now I know it's possible. Going out is much harder now than it was when Jude was a newborn and he slept all the time.

That's interesting about the money being given back to us from the government (I just wish they'd stop stealing it from us in the first place), I didn't know about that either. My husband will be glad to hear about it. Poor man, all the pressure of having to look after his family. I need to start working again but I don't have a job to return to and I'm too exhausted to work.