Hi!

Oh Nikki....big big hugs...I'm not sure what to say...what a tough time you've been going through by the sounds...don't beat yourself up about smoking - you'll get there - you can't deal with everything at once!!!
I think we really need to get together so you can have a good venting session!!! There are some things that can't be really talked about properly through a computer thats for sure...
Obviously it sounds like your at a big crossroads right now with some big decisions and directions to make and that is never an easy time...
Love you lots and if there's anything I can do in any way please let me know...I really think we all need to come over and give you a big hug though!!!

I'm happy with whatever you want to do for the kids birthdays - trains will go down a treat with my boys so it's all good! LOL!

Hope you get some work done Cindy!