I'm still at home and still waiting!!!
there is no way I am going to win this and get a try this time, i am stupidly reading about all the reasons why i should'nt have a CS..accidently to start with and then followed a link to more..not a good move..????
I am feeling completely ripped off now and that i am making bad choice..but with the lack of support from the medical profession ..at this hospital there really is'nt a choice.
I am so nervous..and will be asking loads of questions before I consent to anything.. I have this awful feeling of dread and helplessness which I imagine will only increase as my mobility is limitied and an overwhelming feeling of depression and that i have failed.. I am seriously worried about PND..I think the strain of not knowing for sure what to expect medically from my baby and if there still is a syndrome attatched is really catching up with me.
Sorry to be a downer, at what should be an exciting time and seems to be for everyone but me.
I hope tomorrow and her birth changes everything for me..I just want to run away, but need to pull my big girl undies on and get my chin up and get her delivered safe into my arms, prolonging it is 'nt going to help anything.
Thnaks for all your support, keep me safe in your thoughts tomorrow morning around 8.30am I will imagine you are all there with me cheering me on..
Hugs Pam. xxxx
Oh Pam, I wish I were nearby so I could distract you from torturing yourself. I have only ever experienced a CS and understand your comment about feeling "ripped off". Reading about perfect labours afterwards exacerbated that feeling. So I never posted Matthew's birth story. I can say though that I've also read some horror stories about vaginal births and some terribly distressing stories of uterine ruptures. Why we do this to ourselves, I don't know! What we need is happy anticipation!
Anyway, I hope that you are able to get yourself into the calm mental space you need this morning and I hope with all my heart that everything goes as smoothly as possible for you and your little girl-waiting-for-you. You are a wonderful mother and that's why this little soul has chosen you. Hope you can feel our love and can sense that we are there "with" you today. Big hugs, Pam.
Big hugs Pam. I'll be thinking of you this morning. I'm hoping that you can find some peace with the situation when your little girl is here. Remember that you fought hard and she is the prize in the end.
Pam. as I am posting, I know you are not far from holding your little girl. I hope it all goes smoothly as possible.. be kind to yourself, you''re a bloody trooper I reckon. xx
Just had a call from Pam's DH! Successful delivery of their baby girl by a straight forward CS this morning. Baby was feeding while DH was telling me their news. Both mum and bub are doing well. No other details as yet. hooray for Pam! Welcome to the newest little duckling!
Pam's sent another SMS to say no name yet, but was 4.144kg. And Pam lost a lot of blood but is feeling a bit better today. There is a gorgeous pic of the little princess too, I'll try again to put it on the BB gallery. FB is just too public, even with privacy settings and after a think about it, I'd hate to do the wrong thing!
Last edited by cheekyfrog; April 8th, 2010 at 11:30 PM.
: re: Pam's pic
Well done Pam so super proud of you.
And bab's looks big and healthy - good job...
Heal well and looking forward to hearing how you felt it all went...
Okay, Erin, is that a new avatar (at the risk of looking silly again! lol)? It's really lovely! I've been thinking of upgrading mine to reflect DS being a toddler now, but I think the way he's smiling looking at the milk bar is pretty accurate for the moment! I keep thinking that I should be making a more concerted effort to wean him but I don't know if that will really help make him sleep through the night better. I do wish that I could get him to eat more during the day, I think the day carer has more success on that front. It's school holidays so I'm enjoying having so much more time with him, he really makes me laugh with his antics. However, he's back demanding feeds during the day just like the last holidays and I'm finding it very draining in every sense!
How did everyone go over Easter? DS enjoyed playing with his Humpty egg but I kept the chocolate eating part to a bare minimum. As it was, he spat out one gooey mouthful and that's when the chocolate experience stopped! I, on the other hand, gave myself a sugar high headache!
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Pam. as I am posting, I know you are not far from holding your little girl. I hope it all goes smoothly as possible.. be kind to yourself, you''re a bloody trooper I reckon. xx
hooray for Pam! Welcome to the newest little duckling!
yay Pam. Welcome to the world little one
, can't wait to hear all about her..
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