congrats chrissyt hope you have a trouble free pregnancy

caddie congrats on your little neice arriving.

belle, hope your ok hun, have to catch up soon, my car has **** itself, so i cant go anywhere atm, i can always train it down to hornsby and meet for a cuppa.

ness way to go on your shopping, i have just bought some new nappies for liam( i know i shouldnt of, as i have heeps but gee it made me feel good )

laurin, not long now..good luck for the upcoming birth.

helen, hope your bubbies are doing well.

shell, i never had a bet, luckily as i think my horses are still running lol

jodi, have fun at brissy.

meg,wow that must of been pretty scary for you.

maz, now girl take it easy, i wasnt joking when i mention to come away with me...i need a freind to come, and i dont think i will take mr craigs best mate (#uckhead)..my shout..if you can organise a week with out the kids..i will take you away, you have been there for me in the last 3 months and helped me in so many ways, its the least i can do.

hi to everyone i missed.

as for me, well the doctor has uped my medication, and it has made such a differnce, im starting to feel alive again, and coming out of my dark hole i was in, and looking forward to life as a single mum, and also looking forward to meeting new men down the track.its amazing when things like this happen, that you really get to know who your REAL freinds are, as the first month there was so many calls, 2nd month a few calls, now the odd call, but its from the people that where craigs freinds from years prior, that had not seen much of him or me, that have kept in contact, the best freind does not ring anymore( after he tried it on) which suits me fine, but the guy craig only knew for the last 6 months of his life, he has been there for me ( dont worry he is married with kids) he helped me with fixing craigs bike up all in his own time, he has been great, and one guy that will indeed be my freind for a long time.
it looks like i will be recieving craigs insurance in the next 4 weeks ( thats if his ex accept the offer) i get 75% and his 2 kids two her get 25%, which would see them get around the 28000 mark each, but they have put her as the trustee??? go figure!!! as craig always said $5 burns a hole in her pocket, i can imagine that she will blow the money for them, but what can i do, i will just make sure that i keep all the paper work to show them when they are older that dad left you something ( if indeed she does blow it).
i have been looking at cars to buy i was going to buy a toyota klugar ( or something like that) i need at least 7 seats, but i went looking yeterday and they are all so small inside ( to fit my tribe in) even the landruisers, and taragos, are so small and you would struggle to put a pram in the back with all the seats, i looked at a kia grand carnival, and it s*it on them all for room, so at this stage it looks like that could be it.
caity and liam started family day care on tueday they go twice a week, and the cost is half the price as there old day care and the carer is so nice, and my mum looks after them on wenesdays for half a day, so i have 2.5 days off. caitlyn absoultly love going the other day.
i have also been talking to family support and they are coming everweek to help out, with whateve i need..even if its come for a coffee and a chat..so i am getting the help i need.......now all i need is a new car and a holiday.