Sydney is looking better and better. I told Ry I was considering it tonight and he got real mad. I told him I couldnt do this anymore on my own with no help, Im trying to keep my health intact and I cant do it while Im knackered everyday dealing with a sick baby and my own issues and all the housework/cooking/errands/his crap. He said he'd rather help me out more than have us move. We'll see what happens but if I seriously dont think I'll cope when this baby comes along then Im moving whether he likes it or not. I didnt expect his job to be this time consuming (they make them work weekends and nights when theyre not supposed to so we hardly see him) and I cant expect my poor sister to run down here everytime I need help. I didnt expect J to get sick so often all of a sudden. I didnt expect to have no friends here at all. I didnt expect Ry to work the hours he is.

Im sorry this is so me-me-me. I just feel so overwhelmed with everything thats happened in the last month and so guilty that Im feeling so physically awful and some days wish that I could just sleep all day and have no responsibilities. I worry about Jetts health, I worry about my own, I worry about this baby lasting til 36wks before its born.

Kell, I took a look at Jesse's site, he is just so handsome! We signed the guestbook