MM- if it's the pill messing with your hormones then i am in big trouble as i am not on the pill and sometimes have feelings like that. The other day when she was awake at 4am and i was exhausted i had to put her in her cot crying b/c i was scared i was going to shake her/yell at her or just loose it. I felt so guilty afterwards. I think it is fairly normal to have those feelings when you are sleep deprived, tired and especially if you are under pressure at someone elses house to be quite. I think the problem is that people don't like to talk about it. So i hope you're normal otherwise we'll both head off for councelling.
Glad you had a lovely time in Melb, the people you stayed with sound shocking! Again i think M's behaviour sounds much more along the lines of what i would expect than wht you describe in their child. Don't let people and their silly opinions get to you. You are doing a great job and M is a healthy happy adventurous 1 year old. Lu is very boisterous and into everything, she pinches when she is mad and has massive tantrums. i thought there was perhas someting 'wrong' with her. i spoke to my MCHN about it and said it more likely means she is a little advanced with her emotions, but being so little it is hard for her to express how she feels so she chucks a wobbly. Again, if there is an issue with M then there is certainly one with Lu!


Thanks for all your well wishes, i am feeling much better today and Lu slept last night thank goodness. I have my oldest friend coming to visit, she's been living in an aboriginal community for 12 motnhs in NT so havn;t seen her for ages. Can't wait. Mum is here helping me clean and do the washing, what a champ! So i better go help her.