Well I just caught up on everything and OMG, what the F happened? I stay away for a few days and the crud hits the fan. I have to honestly say I didn't see any judgment of anyone, and I'm unbiased because I wasn't here lol

Either way you all still have to put up with me... even though I'm feeling crummy and really down Here's whats been happening:

After a faint BFP on friday morning with 2nd MU I started spotting on friday night and now *TMI* I'm bleeding, bright red and cramping pretty bad. Sunday I was 12dpo going from when I first started to get O pains, and I had pink spotting round 5dpo.
Feeling slightly glad that it ended so soon as DD is only 10.5wks old and it's too soon for me, but also sad and disappointed that I don't get to grow another bub inside me and frustrated that my body could fail again even when we weren't trying, and guilty because I kept on saying that I didn't really want it... I had just started to come to terms with it all when I started spotting, so it's like I've had my guts ripped out and had the most precious thing stolen from me.

Blegh, sorry for the downer me post... hopefully I'll be in a better place again in a few days.

Hope all of you who are left are doing ok *hugs*