HANG IN THERE Belfie!!!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!! But I so know how you feel about the lack of sleep. Hannah gets about 10 mins nap and thinks she doesn't need anymore.... but I know better.
I really liked what you said about parenting and it redefining limits.....

AFM - well not many persies today.... we've had a fizzer of a day... today I WAS going to redeem a day spa voucher I was given for christmas... arranged it with my aunt to take a day off work to babysit Hannah... well I got into town (took about 30 mins) and my aunt called me and I could hear Hannah absolutely crying inconsolably... needless to say I walked in and asked to reschedule and started crying myself and then I zoomed home. Then my aunt (who is not the teary sort at all) and I burst into tears and Hannah was still in tears. Hannah took about 10-15 mins to settle, then had a nap on the breast. Then my aunt and I went out for lunch and Hannah was all smiles. Guess we just need to practice being with other people in small increments and Hannah and I need to spend more time with my aunt. So there goes any idea of having Hannah babysat whilst I study or go out, at least for a little while. But I will try again, but in smaller time increments and be much much closer to home. Looking on the bright side, my baby needs me