Oh Arte hunny, that would have been awful I'm sure as they get older they will understand what you tried to do. In a way you can protect them from a lot when they are little because they just don't understand, but at the same time it's because they don't understand it that it hurts so much. has he made any mention of custody arrangements and having them for visitation at all? I hope he doesn't shirk his responsibility to them.

At the moment he's making great use of the school and town library, plus I also get books cheap from bookclub. Between that and books that we've already got he's pretty well stocked LOL.