Babies Born ~ September 2007 #75

[Artechim]

I have day to day care, he says he will be back for a visit every 5-6 weeks. I forced him to book the first trip back before he left so I had a date to tell the kids.
It is really awful. Erin woke up hysterical this morning. She is angry at me for letting him leave. She thought if she posted him a picture she worked really hard on then he might love her enough to come back A said he made them specialer every day and now they won't be special They really just can't understand why he has left them and I am struggling to explain when I don't know either. He could have stayed at his parents until a job came along here. I know I would rather live broke than be away from my kids. I guess if you marry a selfish **** you can't expect any better.

In his mind, we will move up at the end of the year and all live in the same house together. Feel sorry for him, obviously he is not coping with the marriage break up but as a parent you don't have the luxury of running away - you have to suck it up and put the kids first. It wasn't even forever, I do want to move north but it has to be somewhere big enough that I can work too.

On the bright side, I feel like a giant weight has been lifted from me. Sure, my house is a tip and the meals have gone way downhill, but it is actually really nice. Turns out it was so over that he was just someone that I watched T.V with.