Ah Kel, where to start....

Firstly, there is a reason they use sleep deprivation as a form of torture. It affects you psychologically, physically and emotionally. I've been there. I know what it's like to feel like you're in a bad dream day in, day out. Living in a fog. Will C take EBM? I think you need at least one night where Damien can get up to all three kids and you can get a good nights' sleep.

Use your phone as an alarm for the baby sessions at the library and play groups. Set the alarm in your phone so it goes off and then displays WHY it's going off. Set it for half an hour before you want to leave - or maybe an hour so you have time to get the munchkins out the door.

Are there any kind of groups you can join for you? Netball? Yoga? A book club? A knitting club? Anything? Even if it's something new or even something you're not really interested in, it will get you out of the house and around other adults. I honestly know what you mean about Damien being the only other adult you see or talk to for weeks at a time. That was me last year until Ben started school. And I don't have the excuse of living the country. I then joined a netball team. I'm also doing the Couch to 5K running program, and although it's a solo thing, I feel SO good after having that half hour to myself. And it's free

As for the housework, I do the bare minimum here at the moment. I would much rather spend time playing with the boys, so the house looks like a bomb's hit it all the time. I do one load of washing and the washing up each and every day. Get Lil and Li to 'help' you with the washing up. Sure it might take twice as long, but it will get done AND keep them occupied for a little while. Ben loves it.

Same goes for gardening. Well, I do nothing in the garden except water my plants because I really hate it, but if you enjoy it, get the two older kids out there pulling out weeds for you. My two older ones really enjoy that too. The fresh air will perk you up and the kids can burn off some energy. Put C into the HAB if you have to and become the supervisor, telling the kids what to do. Of course, it won't help mow the lawn, but it will help with the littler things.

Okay, that's all I've got for now and I've gotta pick up Ben anyway. Hang in there Kel!