hi ladies!

HPL - poor Audrey!! hugs to you both and here's hoping the ultrasound goes well. Please keep us posted!
And I hate AF too!

thanks for your feedback re the Sippycups. I just bought a nuby one, which seems to be better, but Cass, let me now how your earthlust one is going.

AFM - well, I have spent today in tears. so has DD. Started off with me waking up with a blocked milk duct (around half of one breast) and engorgement, super painful. And I think she is now getting her top teeth, and she is biting me while feeding, really hard, and her teeth are so sharp! I tried going ouch, and she laughed (and bit harder doing so), so I have been saying no - sometimes she laughs, sometimes she just looks at me. I can't pull out as she has hold and it hurts. My nipples are raw. Today I didn't mean to, but I really jumped and yelped, and tried to pull her off but in doing so I accidently scratched her face, as well as frightening her. She was inconsolable, she - and I - cried solidly for an hour. In the end she was just gasping and sobbing, and pulling at her ears again (she has finished the anti-biotics, but I am not sure it has helped, even though the doc says they are clearing, I think they are still hurting her). I ended up giving her some panadol because she was shreiking screaming at this point, and she litterally passed out (I mean sleep, not unconcious), I am not sure if it was due to the panadol, or that she didn't have pain, or just sheer exhaustion from crying. And then I felt terrible because a) if she was in that much pain that I had let her suffer for so long or b) if she wasn't in any pain then I had just been like a "casino mum" and doped her up for no reason .
As well as that I was crying from horrible cracked nipples and engorgement and swelling from my blocked milk duct and bruising from where I had tried to massage it to clear it. And I was also crying, because every time I tried to feed her, it just ended up with both of us in tears, and DH being not-so-understanding and saying "just give her a bottle [of frozen EBM]" but I haven't wanted to do that yet, as I don't want to not breastfeed just yet. So I was crying because I am not ready to give up breastfeeding, and not quite sure how to continue.
Anyway, she was asleep for about 3 1/2 hours - something she has NEVER done before, so then I felt even more terrible for either a) medicating her unnecessarily or b) letting her cry and be distressed for so long that she was so exhausted. Either way I am terrible mummy
By the time she woke up, it was too late for a bath and way too late for dinner (solids) so we just soldiered on with BF, which of course hurt, though she only "nipped" a couple of times, but we still had tears, both of us.