Cally- I hope you're right that when the boys get older the cluckiness will fade. I agree with you, I just think I'm finding it hard as a lot of people around me are having number 3 and I'm not.
L has been going brilliantly at swimming since I stopped going in the pool with him. He's much better behaved and really listens. I love it.

Md- dh is not interested in having any more kids ever so the decision is really out of my hands anyway, even if I did decide later on that I wanted another iykwim?
You guys have been through so much the last few years xo