Waiting for the U/S report - WHY IS TIME GOING SO SLOWING? They say a watched kettle never boils well I can tell you a watched clock never ticks and a watched phone never rings!! I am in two minds about it all - I want it to be PS as than we know what is causing all this but I don't want that diagnosis as that means he goes under the knife *argh* I am sick of being strong when I talk to DF on the phone - trying my best to reassure him I am coping with it all but really I am falling to pieces. I have managed maybe 6 hours sleep since Friday night and when I do sleep I have horrid nightmares - the ones where I can't get the terrible images out of my head even when awake!
Have been instructed to feed him every hour for five minutes at a time - to try keep him hydrated - and he seems to be in better spirits, the life has come back to his eyes and I even got a smile. It was nice to cry happy tears for a change, he is a tough lil bugger! However he still his passing blood through his urine and yesterday started puking blood - vomitting so much he has torn his stomach lining!
My milk supply is back up.. those lac cookies do wonders but geez they are full of sugar - a cup of white and a cup of brown still pumping. I went into panic mood (happening alot lately) a bought a $300 electric pump thinking it would work better than the hand one I already have well it doesn't.. waste of bloomin money! Back to getting a full bottle in under 10 minutes, hooray for small victories!
still pumping. I went into panic mood (happening alot lately) a bought a $300 electric pump thinking it would work better than the hand one I already have well it doesn't.. waste of bloomin money! Back to getting a full bottle in under 10 minutes, hooray for small victories!
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