We are going ok. I have had a few yuck days after having a really good few weeks. I think for me alot of my down days is due to hormones. And self esteem/confidence (or lack of). Doesn't make it any easier to live through though. Aaaannyway!
I have a week and a half to go at work before 3 1/2 weeks off, yay!!! I sooooo can't wait. I really wish I could be a full time SAHM. I miss doing good stuff with the kids. As it is it's rush rush rush in the mornings, making lunches, getting things ironed, kids dressed, fed, bags packed and try not to forget anything, cleaning up a bit, trying to get some of dinner sorted so it's easier in the arvo, leaving in enough time to drop Li at mums, Lil at childcare and get me to work with time to have a drink and go to the loo, cause I haven't had time all morning! Then it's work and doing all the same stuff at work that I do at home (and looking after other people's kids while mine go to childcare and I work in childcare, go figure!) which is why it is so hard. Then home to try to clean a bit more cook dinner deal with the witching hours through the dinner bath bed routines. Then when the mad rush is all over DH comes home if he's on day shift, of if he's on night shift he is getting ready for work through it and is yelling at the kids cause they're annoying him while I'm trying to organise dinner. Working those three/four hours in the middle of the day really stuff me up!
Plus lately I've had the thought of another bub on my mind...should we, shouldn't we, do I, don't I. I mentioned it breifly to DH yesterday and he shot me down right away- 'No way we can't afford it!' and well, we really couldn't do it now really. I know rationally it would be a pretty bad idea. But wanting another baby is proving to be rather irrational!
Sorry, I didn't mean for this to become a 'poor me'! Ok gotta go someone's crying.....
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