Babies born~December 1st-15th 2009 # 4

[Alison1973]

Hi Girls!

Hi Beany - sorry you're not feeling well, hope you get better soon. I had a sore throat a week ago and thought I was getting another cold and was so worried about passing it onto Amelia but mine passed really quickly and she was fine. It's really hard to completely avoid them isn't it, I struggled not to kiss Amelia that day! Don't worry about Michael not liking Gymbaroo yet, it was probably very loud for him, it might just take him a couple of goes to get used to it. It can be overwhelming and he might just be a quiet little guy, nothing wrong with that. This day and age they're far too confident and opinionated, personally I think it's nice to know there might be a lovely little sweet boy in the mix....bags him for Amelia's boyfriend ha ha. Hope to catch up again soon. Oh and yay for him crawling, wow, soooo impressive! xx

Hi Carmey - you are such a wonderful person, you are thinking realistically and I like it. I really hope you can work things out with DH but just know that you can do it on your own if you have to, and technically you won't be on your own anyway, you have friends all around you to help you through it. And hello, who wouldn't want a gorgeous girl like you with such a cutie pie little man, there's lots of wonderful guys out there who would kill for a partner like you. I know a guy who would jump at the chance but he lives in Perth, you'll have to move over here lol. That counsellor sounds a bit airy fairy, I agree with you on the "loving yourself" thing but that's not giving you any help/answers on how to move forward is it. I'd be considering speaking to someone else as well. I have to admit sometimes I hear myself in you, I've never got over my ex and I just don't feel like I love DH as much as I ever loved him - not that I tell ANYONE this - but he is a wonderful dad and treats me well, I just have that "lovey" thing missing, he struggles to express himself, I know he loves me but I'd really like to hear it sometimes - it's all how he was brought up. There are days I find myself looking at him thinking, I just don't feel it like I did with my ex, but there's other days when I look at him and then Amelia and think, wow, I wouldn't have my beautiful daughter if it wasn't for him. Sounds horrible doesn't it, I do love him, I just don't feel that immense love that I had with my last partner....I hate saying that but it's just true and I'm so glad I can be open with you guys like that. I feel guilty as DH is so good to me, I shouldn't say things like that should I! It's hard isn't it, but you do what you feel is right for you and Jack, no point being miserable and I'm not miserable, I just need to get past the fact that my fairytale relationship from the past no longer exists! Can't have it all I guess! Like Willow said, don't give up hope though, I thought I was destined to never marry and have children when I broke up with my last partner after 7 years at the age of 29 but 2 years later I met DH and look at me now, of course everything has happened later in life than I would've liked but things happen for a reason, I strongly believe that.

Hi Willow - how are you beautiful? Harry well?

Hi Kanda, Lani, Rose, BS......hope you and your beautiful bubbas are all well.

AFM - Amelia is 8 months old today, where on earth has that time gone!!! Had her health check today and she's in the 90th for height and weight, 71 cms long and 9.4 kgs....I thought maybe it meant she was overweight but the nurse said because she's tall her weight is in proportion. Funnily enough she's on in the 25th percentile for her head circumference, at least it means she hasn't inherited the Polish noggen ha ha. She said she is doing well developmentally, I told her she's not crawling yet and she said not to worry, babies will do it between 7 and 10 months, she said normally she wouldn't see her again until she's 18 months old but I'll go back at 10 months as she'd like to see how she's getting on. I worried about that at first but then thought that was being silly, she did say she's not far off it as she's lifting her leg to the side, I just need to give her more free nappy time, she's always got pants on and on the play mat which is slippery, that wouldn't be helping. Not to mention the fact that when I put her on her feet she wants to jump (Jolly Jumper)......so the nurse said to stop using that for a bit until she learns to bare her weight on her feet. ha ha...........always something isn't there!

Well, gotta run, DH is out getting takeaway for dinner, now that I've said all those things I feel bad, I'm not unhappy, I just thought I'd share my thoughts. I swear the movies give false advertising for romance ha ha.....The Notebook, my favourite movie but how disappointing when it doesn't happen in life ha ha ha - although I think I had it once but look what happened, it fizzogged out!!!!