I'm struggling along here atm, Emily been unsettled and still waking alot at night, been trying formula at 10pm and she'll drink only about 100mls and feed again at 2am and 6am but wakes also in between those times so I feel I'm being woekn roughly every 2hrs, then have to chase after a toddler all day who has a bit of an attitude at the moment. She also giving us grief at bedtime, runnign around til 9:30 or even 10:15, then of course I have to wake her in the mornings and she spends the morning being tired and grumpy. So I just feel so exhausted. I can't get much done around the house so that makes me feel worse when its all messy, anyway soldiering on!

Ali- I rmember with Ash about 3 times I got tiny smears of blood and would think Af was on her way back but then nothing so most likely that, hope you have contraception worked out for next time

Kaz- It often happens when you think you have dealt with something but when it comes to saying the words out loud it so hard. Its great tho that you did speak about it, I think all that will help you deal with it.

Det- Glad the c'sion went well, hopefully he'll give you good night sleep if he is still bit drowsy. How is it healing?

Holly- I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your friend, so much has been going on with you lately I really hope you are looking after yourself. Have you got support around you to help you deal with everything?