poopie: with sunday - DH will drop me and Vic off and have some daddy- Dj time. (plus he wants me to get out on my 'own' as such too) but maybe the next meet up ('mar make your DF read this LOL) we can have the man-childs come too!

AFM: vic must be haing another growth spert while yes, im happy he's growing and all...im a weee bit like "NOOO SLOW DOWN CHILD" as he's in 00's already. and when in the MCN (the crappola ones we have lol) his bum is HUGE! i'll have to get a photo of both boys in them and post them on FB lol. but Vic is rolling from tummy to back now. then gets all cranky nappy on us when he cant get back the poor thing. but its veery cute. i cant wait to get my fluffy mail. DH went to the IL's with DJ after a 3am start for us (thanks to a) a cold and b) going to sleep at 9pm) and got home just as the postie rode past lol. but you girls might know this - is it the 'normal' postie or the curier ones? cus i think that girls going to think im addicted to online shopping LOL - seeing as in the last month she's been here twice already! its a little scary that our bubbas are comming up to 3 months. they've been 'alive' for 12 (lol, ya know the whole conseption thing ) time flys.
i talked to DH today too about how i'm feeling about myself. which TBH is rather flat. i told him that i'm feeling depressed. 'cus today laying on the floor with vic it clicked. i'm becomming my mother. she was always a 'bigger' women. and thus never really got down and dirty playing with me or my sister. something i dont want for my boys. shes now also on meds for diabetes and my dad is in insulen for it also (plus my 90 year old nan has it too, but thats due to age not weight) and im worried i'll end up like that. its also not helping that i look at myself and see flab. i did a BMI thingy today. and it was 31 mind you BMI's arent the be all and end all. i knew a girl who was on a state aths team and BMI said she was morbidly obese. but i still would like to get down from the 93kg i currently am. so i told DH i want to lose 10kg+ by christmas. if not more. so now im going to do a weekly shop (and 'eat out the freezer' of all the meat we have) and buy things like carrot and corn thins (with avo on them) to snack on of a night - as DH and I eat dinner at 4:30-5pm due to his work. and cut out 90% of the soft drink (saterday is exempt due to that be our "chill out" day) i'm even going to see if i can find a celiory counter for my *new* mobile, becuase my kids deserve a healthy mumma and one who'll want to go out the back and smoosh in puddles and all that. not like mine.
now i better go and feed DJ before he tries (again) to climb onto the dineing room chair...and this kid can't even walk yet!