Beata, that was super duper cute! and yes I miss my belly. I miss the kicks and I miss knowing that it didn't matter where I went Harri was right there safe in my tummy.

Just a quick post from me and will catch up on personals later.

Harrison is still struggling with breast feeding. I start to think he's getting it but the next feed he's back to the usual. He's still distracted by every tiny little thing even when I shut myself away and make the room as dark as I can, he pulls himself off and gets cranky. So tonight I gave him a bottle of formula (the karicare gold stuff) it's like he's a totally different baby. After he had it (and he scoffed it down within 10 mins) he actually sat quite contently in his bouncer and made cute little noises and was flicking the toy turtle on it. He even refused his dummy. I am dissappointed in myself for not being able to BF as I had planned (wanted to feed him until he was 6 months at least) but I have to think if he's happy then I'm happy, that's the main thing. Crying everyday and stressing out was only doing wrong by him and if all its going to take to make him a happier baby is changing to formula then that's what I'm going to do...I'm going to express for the next couple of weeks and build up a supply to freeze for him so he has that bit longer on the breast milk and have that in conjunction with the formula. For my own peace of mind I need to remember that I did try and I was able to give him a solid month of breast milk (for the record I'm not against formula feeding there is absolutely nothing wrong with it, I just had my heart set on BF).

sorry for the rant...it was my Mum's 50th birthday today and for some reason it as only after talking to her and her saying I'm not failing him etc that I feel good about my decision, even though I've had everyone else saying the same thing. Strange how that works.