Amy - i completely understand how you're feeling with barely holding it together. things got so bad this week we had to go and get a charity hand out to help get some food in the cupboards as we've pretty much eaten our way through what we had over the past two months. it seemed that all the "staple" foods were running out together - not a nice feeling! we went and did some shopping today and at least we have food - but swallowing my pride and making that call nearly killed me. i know i've had a shorter fuse than i should - but i think i'm leaning towards sinking in depression more than getting angry now. i can't seem to even find anger anymore. it's just doing my head in. sigh - we can feel like crap together - i'm usually up for a chat if you need to vent hun

well, not a lot to say after that little outpouring. starting to worry about E - she hasn't had a dirty nappy in 9 days and it's becoming obvious that she is very uncomfy. i am going to send mum to the chemist tomorrow if she hasn't gone, but i'm trying as much as i can to avoid medicines to force her to go. she's asleep in my arms (refused sleep anywhere - even in my arms was a fight, so i think she is sore) - when she wakes, we'll try tummy massage again and see if i can give her some relief. poor bubba