Hey Nic I totally agree with BG on this. If you feel like that you are always better to just let them cry for a bit and regroup. That's why I laid in bed and cried and let J cry the other morning. I was beat and I felt like I was close enough to the edge that I might slip if she pushed me more. So the safest thing to do in that situation was to just take a moment. I think any mother who says she has never had a moment like that id either lying or has a really really really easy baby and a great support system. The rest of us just have to have little moments. It may not be ideal but life isn't fair and we do the best we have with what we have. You had enough insight to know you needed to look after yourself for a moment to better care for your bub. Kudos to you sweet heart. Well all get there. Don't beat yourself up

Love Bella