Awww Beany! Don't be so hard on yourself, you are doing the very best you can for Michael and I bet he just adores you for it!

I am also a first timer, we were due on the same day and my little man was born the day before yours, he has also lost weight, we too like Arimeh were doing breast and formula feeds, breast breast breast and then top ups of formula, then dropped back to breast when my milk came in, no lack of supply, Cruz is a great feeder and LURVES the boobie but then I got put on antibiotics, Cruz got diarrhoea from them and I am assuming that's why he has lost so much weight so I am breastfeeding and formula feeding again - Cruz was 3970 at birth, 3670 when we left hospital which the paed's were happy with and on Sunday he was down to 3260 Weighing in again tomorrow, fingers crossed he has gained!

I know how you feel, I feel just horrible as well, we just have to do what's best for our little one's, try not to feel guilty about it, it's not your fault, I bet we're not the only ones! I can understand how you feel alone, both of my parents have passed away and DH's family are around but there's sooo much drama in the very large family that we try to steer clear, you have me on Facebook hun, if you want to chat, just send me a message, I don't care if you want to scream, cry or talk about a funny looking caterpillar you saw this afternoon, just don't be shy and know you are a fantastic Mummy, you are not alone and everything WILL BE OK!! I hope your Mum can come over sooner for you! Awww big hugs honey, chin up and best wishes for tomorrow xox