afternoon ladies.

Thanks for all the hugs and kind words re: my milk (or there lack of) my mums being saying the same thing but i just havent gotten around it in my own head, i still feel crumby about it all

had a sh*t fight with DF last night! ive been absolutley EXHAUSTED the last few days coz coops has been so grumpy and he wakes during the night for a few hours and then is up for good at 5am, but whenever its DFs turn to get up to him the little bugger sleeps for 10 hours!!!!!!!!! so he woke up at 3am and i got up to him, but excuse me for being in a bad mood, its fricking 3am and im literally asleep on my feet. so i mumbled a few swears under my breath in DFs direction and went and laid on the couch, Cooper was a little squirmy but hes eyes were closed he was just fighting it a bit. but DF barges in and yanks him off me and woke him up!! so the sucker walked around for an hour and a half before they both finally crashed (karma i think) now whenever Coopers in a bad mood and DF has him i ASK if he wants me to take him or i SUGGEST ways to make him stop crying. DF is in the habit of TELLING me to do things and it makes me feel like crap. it just adds to my feeling that im truely sucking at this whole 'mother' thing. so out of spite of took of my engagement ring and slept in the spare bed, ive given him the silent treatment this morning but hes either pretending he doesnt care or he actually doesnt care i no im being juvenile, but hes doing my head in. i love him i really do...

anyways he have our friends from NSW, who are staying at thier parents house 2 towns over (small world huh??) coming over this arvo for a few drinks and a swim in the pool for nye. MIL is coming to get coops later so we can have a care free, baby free night. one of the plus' about not BFing i spose

hope you all have wonderful nights and happy and healthy 2011s
talk to you all next year xx