AFM - cant say much more i can hear Coops starting to stir, im feeling better already. not completely better but i can definately tell the difference, i dont get AS anxious and upset when Cooper cries now. im a little upset, DFs parents have been asking questions as in 'why did you have days off work last week' and 'why did Amy go to the doctors' and DF just keeps saying oh shes just a little sad WTF?? call it what it is. its like hes ashamed of me! i didnt get PND on purpose. i think he thinks its not a big deal and its normal?? ummmmm its not normal to not want to hold your own child, and when your breast feeding you feel physically sick. i showed him the letter from the doctor that says 'servere post partum depression' and 'its a matter of urgency as im worried re: self harm' and 'possible hospitalisation' he just goes 'oh ok' its really getting to me, but im not sure why. i just dont want him to be ashamed of me, i already think im a failure as a mother as it is. anyways gotta dash, gotta fold washing before coops completely wakes up xx