pretz here here! I totally agree with the FB ban idea. You can actually 'deactivate' your account on FB, it asks you what reason you are doing it for, and then tells you that to reactivate all you have to do is login. WTF? lol. I tried it once and lasted a few hours ahahahaha. It is all too easy to login again..

thanks for your kind words re: J and all that. I'm taking V there today again. I mentioned on the phone that it is courteous to let me know if they will be late and that I am not happy V keeps coming home smelling of cigarettes. His answer to that "oh that wouldn't have been from here" wtf? Where else has he been? He goes to their place, they are smokers, he comes home, I am NOT a smoker.. um, pretty sure it IS from there!!

Today I have to ask him about the formula and food they've given him lately. I have a feeling they have changed his formula or something because the last 3 days he has been constipated. He has NEVER EVER been constipated before.
It was so bad it made his bottom bleed and mum said yesterday he screamed and cried in pain when he pooped. 3 times.

I was at work yesterday, for my first shift back. Remember a while ago I went to visit with V and there were staff there that upset me by *****ing about me? One of them was the girl I had to work with last night. She lost a baby to a rare condition and apparently she doesn't think I deserve to be able to have a healthy baby because I am a single mum and I shouldn't have a baby anyway. She told this to my trainer because she asked what her issue was (and the trainer is one of my close friends - but she didn't know that).

She was so rude. She wouldn't look me in the eye and speak to me and moped around.
I don't give a flying f$#! what her personal issues are, she shouldn't bring them to work.
I barely even know her. What a moron. Hope she gets over herself before I have to work with her again. I mean yes it all is sad etc. about her baby but she has no right to judge me. She is friends with that other girl the one who lost a baby (that was due a week before me) and said I don't deserve to be a mum just because I was complaining one night about sleep deprivation.
God some of you other mums would be undeserving in her eyes too. Too much complaining about a good thing. ..She lost her baby so therefore nobody else is allowed to have bad days.. Seriously, she should grow up. As if those things can even be compared.

I am not a heartless person, I am a very caring and compassionate person. Why should I be made to feel guilty for even mentioning my baby at work though.. It didn't help that I was trying to be a little respectful but every other person there kept bringing him up..