Still getting counselling but just don't feel like it is doing anything as I don't feel I have connected with this new person. MIL is treating me like a doormat, even in my own home but DH said she does not listen to him so if I want things to change I have to speak to her. Basically he is over listening to me and does not give a crap anymore. I keep getting really annoyed that (and this is not aimed at anyone but just how I feel atm) everyone gets meds for PND or anxiety and I have to 'talk'. Have seriously felt like just walking out for good. DH working 6 days a week for another year is BS. He wanted to go away for Easter and I more or less told him he is welcome to go without me. His cousin who in almost 18 yrs I have met maybe once is getting married in May. I told him I am not going because A) I don't know her and she wont miss me, B)I am 20kg over weight, I have nothing that fits me / still wearing maternity shorts and C) It is Mothers Day the next day and I don't feel like sitting in a car coming home all day. I did tell him he can go. Have Alannahs Baptism the week after Mother day and apart from booking the day at the Church and asking a friend to be her Godmother, I have done nothing else. I lie, I have arranged for a dress to be made.