Bec - I used to love sleeping with ash under my arm. And loved him waking to find a boob rather crying. I know 100% how all that feels. Nights was always my hardest.. It was more so when ash was a little older and if he got sick and threw up, one time in particular all over me and his bed and himself and I had to consol a crying baby and clean it all up whilst holding him and leave myself to last THAT was a massive moment for me. It is very tough emotionally, but here's a good positive for you when you start getting sad at night.. Think how wonderful and amazing those feelings feel when your cuddling your little man in bed and think if you had a man in bed with you chances are he would winge about not getting attention or wanting sex and it would be easy at all sharing a bed with everyone. Then if he did have to be on his own bed you would have issues about who gets up to what and who's more tired etc....
After rob started coming on the scene he always said get ash in his own bed cos it's not good for him to co-sleep. But he had NO idea how beautiful it was sleeping with him.
And on my saddest days, waking every morning and looking down at him smiling back at me made nothing in the world matter!

Just a quick me post -
I prob won't be on BB too much for a while. Tho I do read and try to keep updated. And for thoes who see the depressing posts on fb and wonder why..
Rob and I are pretty much over after I found some dirty messages to girls on his phone from right after Isabella was born. I won't go into it but I'm a big time mess ATM and not really coping with it, but pls don't say anything on fb to why I'm upset as his family are on it too.

Hope everyones well xx