Hi guys,

Sorry bout the meltdown the other day. I had visited a friend and her baby (16 wks old) was wide awake but started to show tired signs so she picked him up, put him in his cot and left him and he was asleep like 2 minutes later. Then reading lots of other peoples notes about babies sleeping through the night..well it all pushed me over the edge! I was like 'WHY ISNT CHLOE DOING THIS> WHAT AM I DOING WRONG? Well now things are a little better. Still not great but hoping we will get there. She does sleep well during the day which is a plus. 2 x 1 hour sleeps and 1 x 2 hour sleep. But she wont go to sleep on her own - i have to hold her until she sleeps. Last night was a little better 7pm - dreamfeed at 10:30, then she woke at 2:30, 4:30, grizzled at 5:30 so I brought her into bed with us then she slept until 7:30. Thats the best we have done I think. Just really want her to drop this 4:30 one! But better than the last few nights where she was up every second hour or so. I got so rundown I broke out in a rash and am losing a bit too much weight I think. Sorry to winge, promise my next post will be more positive

Pantha - you shouldnt feel like a failure! Hardly anybodies pregnancies go the way they planned. Connie, Deana, mine and others I am sure are all examples. I threw my birth plan out the window when my hind waters broke. The most important thing is that you have a beautiful, healthy, baby girl and you are the absolute most important person in the world to her.

I think they are not newborns when they hit the 3 month mark..12weeks. But I am not sure why I think that!