Hi Ladies
Thanks for all the kind words. I am trying to think about what exactly I want and need out of this relationship and obviously DH needs to as well. After giving me some space after Fri night, we ended up meeting up later Saturday night. I had a girls night clubbing etc which we had planned ages ago and I didn't want to bail on it (plus needed a stress relief). DH went over to a mates house for a bbq (Sarah at MILs again, she did really well there ) and they all ended up coming into town as well. We got to talking at the club and I told him that no matter what happens tonight between us, nothing changes. We can't just gloss over what has happened. We ended up having a dance on the dance floor and DH wouldn't let me go. He even told me that once we got home that we can keep on dancing to some music in the living room (big thing seeing as he's not a real dancy person).
He ended up telling me that it was great to see me being Kate for a change instead of acting like Sarahs mummy and at that point I realised that it was awesome to do that. I think DH realised that was a big part of the problem cos I stopped being me. KWIM? So anyway, he also mentioned that I looked hot (check out FB lol)which is also a big step for him cos hes not a big complimenter. So things are looking up but still most definately keeping that appt. He mentioned on fri night that he wants more kids but is unsure about having any more with me cos of how I was after S's birth (ie PND, punching a wall etc). I told him that I can't help whether I get it or not but because we are away more of it that we can work through it better. Second child so not a newbie to it, knowledge that I did get it last time plus he will support me more cos he knows what can happen. So definately have to work though that as well as his dismal communication skills.
I'm still feeling fragile from it all and cautious about getting to optimistic about it working out in the end but really want to make a go of it. Like MD said, if things do go bad then at least I can say I tried my hardest.

My tongue is still a bit swollen and eating food is a challenge but I have lost 2kgs this weekend from not eating so WOOT!! lol

Sorry for the long post...bit of a novel really. Days of our Lives BB style lol

MD - can't wait to see pics of Hs big day. That cake sounded awesome

Noni - Try not to stress over how much hes eating...all bubs are different. I used the tissue in the sposie trick to check that S had wee'd

Can't remember much else so hugs all around...