I've never, that I know of, had hallucinations before in my life. I've always remembered wondering what it would actually be like to see something that's not real, only you see it as real. Mostly I wonder that when it happens in a movie.

Last night though, I had my second hallucination, and it scared the pants of me and freaked out DH. I've had it once before in the past two weeks, but nothing like it was last night.

The hallucination is that Savannah is inside the doona cover and she's suffocating. I wake up and all of a sudden realise she's somehow managed to get in between the two pieces of material that make the doona cover up, and she's right up the top end (so not down the bottom where I could rip open buttons). I can see the shape of her, and I can see her kicking her legs and arms around violently - ie if she was struggling to break out.

First time it happened I was in the spare room and I must have snapped out of it pretty quick as it wasn't that bad - more just weird. Last night though DH was standing beside the bed (holding Savannah no less) and witnessed the whole thing. He said I was extremely panicked (as you would be if you think your child is in trouble) and was desperately trying to rip open the doona cover.

He also said that it took a few tries for me to "hear" him - in that he was calling out my name and asking what's wrong, but I didn't answer straight away. When I did realise he was talking to me I screamed that she was stuck in the doona, and he said back that no, she was fine and "here, I am holding her". It was then that I just burst into uncontrollable sobbing and grabbed her for cuddles.

Is this just a lack of sleep causing this?