I think that is a real possibility, BG. I find that if I'm really tense, and/or then concentrating on wanting to have a letdown ASAP it inevitably takes longer for the letdown to happen! I think it's a matter of trying to relax you're upper body, especially your arms and shoulders, and maybe that might make a difference? I feel like it does for me.

As to expense, that's one of the beautiful things about BF - it costs nothing, so when it is happening and happening well (sometimes even with the times where you can't wait for a feed/feeds to end!) it's another positive thing to think about.

Just got to take each day as it comes, and congratulate yourself on getting through another day/week etc. when things are hard, so I'll congratulate you too!